The Ex and the Jealousy

Well, finally the tables have turned on me. I just start getting my life on track, and it ends up making others very unhappy with me, namely my ex. Who know is my best friend. (Awkward, isn't it?)

We broke up about two and a half years ago, and it has taken me a long time to get over him. He had moved on by having things with other woman countless times, and to this day I have only kissed 2 other ppl since we called it quits.

He keeps telling me that I must move on and make my life happy for myself yet when I meet other guys and I talk to them through various communication things such as mxit or facebook, or meeting a person in the flesh, I am immediately given the third degree and I am treated with absolutely no respect ( like being told that I am already messing with the guy when I haven't even had a chance to go on a first date!) I miss having someone in my life but if this continues, then no man will want to be with me. Please don't get me wrong but "Bob" has been really good to me and he has been there for me when my own family couldn't be, but I can't be toyed with like this.

Well, I guess there is no use in carrying on about it. I just wish there was an easy solution to this, the problem is, I will be in a lose lose situation.

So, in the end I have decided to adopt the attitude of "I don't give a crap what anyone else thinks, its time to think of myself for a change"

Speaking of meeting men, in the Fish Hoek/Sun Valley/Noordhoek/Simons Town, Cape Town, South Africa area, there is a serious shortage of men. This I mean that there is a serious shortage of men who have direction in life, who want to find someone special and think of settling down. All the men in these areas are more concerned about missing that important rugby match, forgetting the milk and remembering the beer, and looking where the next easy girl is that they can score with. Sometimes I wish I was born in the same era as my grandmother, at least men back then used to stick around and care for their loved ones!

**** "Bob" (his name was changed to protect his privacy)

The Start

This would absolutely be the first time that I am opening myself up in the internet world. I have never thought that I would do something like this, as sometimes its not an easy thing to have others see your thoughts and feelings, but in the same breath, its got a sense of calming.....

I was indirectly introduced to this blogspot by a friend, I am not sure if he will know who he is.. Thank you for opening my eyes...

Well, its been 7 days living in my own place, without family or a flat mate and I can tell you that it has not been easy, but I am starting to enjoy it. A lot of things changed when I moved on my own, I had to let go of someone I really loved in a certain way and accept that we are purely just friends. And in a sense it is also calming because now its MY PLACE, MY RULES. I have decided that I am ready to start dating again and looking for someone who has direction in life and who will love me for who I am. I am tired of being messed around.

I have been making new friends and going new places and I know that this is a good start to a good life. Hey, friend who introduced me to this site, it would be great to hear from you.